That’s the good news as of late. I’ve been put in a season of rest and growth, and as the Lord is at work, the spiritual attacks are becoming more consistent. The disrupted sleep is getting old. How many times can someone wake up in a sweat during the night?
I’ve been meaning to cleanse and pray over the house. Every time I plan to do something after work or after the kids go to sleep, I end up falling asleep, my mind goes blank, and then I end up doing something else. Pray for me to stick to my guns and not have my brain waves altered by unseen forces. These unclean spirits have got to go!
Along with the season of rest, I’ve been going through the house and removing items with spirit ties. Slowly but surely, it’s getting cleared out and cleaned up. We’ll have to make a day or just cleaning and blessing items, breaking bonds, and tossing cursed things. I want mental clarity back, and in the name of Jesus, I’ll receive it! Not to mention, I’m signed up to start finishing my accounting degree in the spring. Mental clarity would be great for doing schoolwork at home.
There is this sense in my spirit that everything is going to turn around after the new year. It started last year, but things take perfect timing. Now is the next significant shift. Some digital projects have been placed on my heart to work on and complete as I’m fighting through he attacks.
How would you all feel about a live house-blessing?
“Spiritual Attacks- Sifting Out Cursed Items-Live”
In the Bible, we were given every herb bearing seed and every tree bearing fruit for “meat”. All the creatures were given every green herb for meat. (Genesis 1:29-30). Then we became so wicked, mixing and mingling with the sons of God, and making “men of old” and whatnot; God said we would only live for 120 years after that. (Genesis 6:3). Then the flood happened, and God commissioned Noah to build the ark. After the waters receded he told Noah and his family to go forth and repopulate the planet and they have the green herb and “every moving thing that liveth shall be meat for you”, said God. Then he also goes on to say “but flesh with the life thereof, which is the blood thereof shall ye not eat.” (Genesis 9:3-4)
So my feelings about eating meat depend on the “meat” in question? Is it “green herb”, “every moving thing”, or “flesh with the life thereof”?
Green herb- veganism- those that followed this diet lived for 800 years. That’s cool, but we grieved God so much he flooded us out.
“every moving thing”- eating other species on the planet is assumed to make us live for 120 years, which doesn’t grieve God as much. And I like bacon and chicken tenders.
“flesh with the life thereof”- not only is it generally/morally frowned upon, but cannibalism is biblically frowned upon… As well.
During quiet time with my Lord the other day, he brought something to my remembrance. A moment in time that was a huge red flag and part of my awakening. This memory got me to Psalm 56 this morning. I’ve taken a brief hiatus to focus on getting the storefront crafts at least started. The extra sleep has been appreciated as well. I’ve got more designs to get put together and added to the shop.
Things have been tight financially since the summer, and my God is up to something good. Being patient is the hardest part of all of this. The worry keeps knocking and trying to come in.
God is good all the time. Matthew 6:25
Today is a reset and sync calendars day. Let’s see how far we get with two toddlers. Soon to be four children.
This is actually the second attempt to present this evidence. The first time I was sick and fell asleep in my chair before I even got started. It went better than I was anticipating, even with a surprise guest co-host for the first hour or so of it. There was also way more evidence than I thought I had put together.
I asked the Lord yesterday what I should do to get into the right headspace for this presentation. Obviously, prayer and I was inclined to do a day of fasting with one meal after dark. Then on my drive home I was thinking about listening to something. It just seemed like a night for a noisy drive. then Spotify recommended that Monk of The Abbey of Notre Dame- Christmas chants! It just dropped Friday. I cannot tell you all how excited I was. This was the most excited I’ve been about anything in a long time. After Jesus.
I’m a nerd.
This new Christmas album they dropped is lit. Check it out! Also, check out the rest of the livestream.
All of that being said, after presenting the evidence against the traits of the spirits and clinical traits of Narcissitic Personality Disorder, I cannot believe the nerve of this person. They literally said to my face
“I’m not a narcissist. I don’t really fit the traits of that condition. Remember I took abnormal psyche, I know what I’m talking about.”
-The Culprit
If you don’t feel like watching the whole presentation, I’ll give you a synopsis. With a tad more context since its been a while since I shared the testimony.
I was married to one of these people mentioned in 2 Timothy 3 for almost 10 years. Last year, around Father’s Day, I got a feeling in my gut that something was up. That’s when I heard the Lord calling to me. It wasn’t so easy to ignore like it had been before. Pregnant with our fourth child, his self-serving behaviour had become worse than during the previous pregnancies. He had lost his dang mind; if he thought I would remain tolerant of the shoddy behaviour any longer, he is about to become sorely disappointed. The Lord hooked me up. I began recording our interactions and separating myself from his witchcraft. He still seems to be at an absolute loss for what to do; at the same time, he seems to have taken on a different angle. Filling me in on his time with the children as quickly as possible and bailing faster than I have ever seen him move in the entire 10 years we were a “couple”. Claiming “I bet mom’s tired of me being here.”
As irksome as that is, the Lord isn’t letting me fall for it. The Culprit can try to continue his methods. But God is protecting the children’s minds and showing me the way to peace, understanding, and purpose. The enemy loses in the end, and we have been given dominion over them in Jesus’ name.
The Culprit has covertly told me he’s sending me disruptive dreams and illnesses. That he’s monitoring me by “not spying on me”. He’s slyly confessed that he’s performing withcraft on me. The kids and I have been almost constantly sick for the last month or so. We’re finally over whatever it was. That’s just what happens with these types of people. They only care about control and receiving. The Bible warns us about them and tells us to walk away from them. Create some distance and love them from afar. That is precisely what the Lord has been guiding me to do.
That’s it for this post. I’m going to get out of here. I’ll schedule the December livestreams after Thanksgiving. There is one more stream planned for this month, next Saturday at 10 pm. I’m not totally sure what will be going on then, probably just more crafting. Maybe some information on the Spirit of Indifference. I don’t have the Holy Spirit download for that far out.
Talk soon!
,Robin
2 Timothy 3:1-9
1 This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come .
2 For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,
3 Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
4 Traitors, heady, highminded , lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
5 Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away .
6 For of this sort are they which creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, led away with divers lusts,
7 Ever learning , and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.
8 Now as Jannes and Jambres withstood Moses, so do these also resist the truth: men of corrupt minds, reprobate concerning the faith.
9 But they shall proceed no further * : for their folly shall be manifest unto all men, as theirs also was .
I’ve been remembering a few days before the second meeting, right after the e-mail. There is no way they knew of my occult ties at the first meeting. I never mentioned it until the e-mail. They told me they didn’t look terrified; they were concerned. That wasn’t sitting right with my gut then, and it’s not sitting right with my gut now. I asked the Lord while I was replaying the moment in my mind, if maybe “The Culprit” told them stuff or planted thoughts. He replied ‘planted thoughts’. I then asked how to pray about that. I don’t have a response as of yet to that question. Then I asked if their demons were communicating. And the Lord said ‘yes’. I continued thinking about that moment, and moved into how when the kids don’t see “The Culprit” all day, like after plans change at the last minute, they get really wild. Then also when “The Culprit” is taking a while to fill me in on their day, the kids get wild. Even more so after “The Culprit” leaves for the evening, and then they konk out. Are the kids just breathing a sigh of relief and letting out their feelings, or is there something else at play, like witchcraft? The Lord said ‘yes’. The I was instructed to read ‘Proverbs 8’. Which helped with that unanswered question. Keep reading.
1 Doth not wisdom cry ? and understanding put forth her voice?
2 She standeth in the top of high places, by the way in the places of the paths.
3 She crieth at the gates, at the entry of the city, at the coming in at the doors.
4 Unto you, O men, I call ; and my voice is to the sons of man.
5 O ye simple, understand wisdom: and, ye fools, be ye of an understanding heart.
6 Hear ; for I will speak of excellent things; and the opening of my lips shall be right things.
7 For my mouth shall speak truth; and wickedness is an abomination to my lips.
8 All the words of my mouth are in righteousness; there is nothing froward or perverse in them.
9 They are all plain to him that understandeth , and right to them that find knowledge.
10 Receive my instruction, and not silver; and knowledge rather than choice gold.
11 For wisdom is better than rubies; and all the things that may be desired are not to be compared to it.
12 I wisdom dwell with prudence, and find out knowledge of witty inventions.
13 The fear of the LORD is to hate evil: pride, and arrogancy, and the evil way, and the froward mouth, do I hate .
14 Counsel is mine, and sound wisdom: I am understanding; I have strength.
15 By me kings reign , and princes decree justice.
16 By me princes rule , and nobles, even all the judges of the earth.
17 I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me.
18 Riches and honour are with me; yea, durable riches and righteousness.
19 My fruit is better than gold, yea, than fine gold; and my revenue than choice silver.
20 I lead in the way of righteousness, in the midst of the paths of judgment:
21 That I may cause those that love me to inherit substance; and I will fill their treasures.
22 The LORD possessed me in the beginning of his way, before his works of old.
23 I was set up from everlasting, from the beginning, or ever the earth was.
24 When there were no depths, I was brought forth ; when there were no fountains abounding with water.
25 Before the mountains were settled , before the hills was I brought forth :
26 While as yet he had not made the earth, nor the fields, nor the highest part of the dust of the world.
27 When he prepared the heavens, I was there: when he set a compass upon the face of the depth:
28 When he established the clouds above: when he strengthened the fountains of the deep:
29 When he gave to the sea his decree, that the waters should not pass his commandment: when he appointed the foundations of the earth:
30 Then I was by him, as one brought up with him: and I was daily his delight, rejoicing always before him;
31 Rejoicing in the habitable part of his earth; and my delights were with the sons of men.
32 Now therefore hearken unto me, O ye children: for blessed are they that keep my ways.
33 Hear instruction, and be wise , and refuse it not.
34 Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors.
35 For whoso findeth me findeth life, and shall obtain favour of the LORD.
36 But he that sinneth against me wrongeth his own soul: all they that hate me love death.
While I’m still in my training season and haven’t been instructed to move into the next season yet. I can’t help feeling like there is something more I could be doing.
I was presented with an opportunity to join a community of people with similar beginnings to their stories, and when I let it be known the direction the Lord was taking me in, one of the other members presented a couple of names of spiritual leaders I had never heard before. Derek Prince and Morris Cerullo.
Upon listening to one of Derek Prince’s sermons, there was one part that stood out the most. He began speaking about principalities. The principality over New Zealand, to be exact, the Lord told him that it was Indifference. That moment triggered a memory of something “The Culprit” used to repeat almost as often as the body-image comments about our oldest child. He used to say, “It’s almost like he’s just really indifferent”, “I wouldn’t say he’s lazy, but just indifferent”, “He’s got an indifference when it comes to his school work,” and really anything that he had to focus on that he didn’t choose to do. Saying these things is casting a curse. This is witchcraft. It is covert and damaging. Our oldest child has no self-esteem, body issues, and extreme difficulty getting anything/participating in anything that doesn’t interest him, or that “The Culprit” has negatively commented on” (like potatoes. see mention body image comments)
Now, this leads me into another investigation: the Spirit of Indifference. First is the livestream presenting the findings for the Spirits of Leviathan, Jezebel, and Python (NPD) November 22nd, 2025 at 9pm on YouTube. Please save it to your calendar and join in. “The Culprit” is the example used in this presentation, and if you’ve made it this far in the post, “The Culprit” is the prime human example of most of what the kids and I are experiencing.
Then we’ll dive into the Spirit of Indifference. Who sounds like a relative of Sloth. We will find out.
In an attempt to get some crafts done for the store I stayed up after the kids went to bed last night and managed to get quite a bit finished, started and brainstormed. But it resulted in only getting about three hours of sleep. Somehow though I feel like I got a whole night’s rest. That’s Jesus. That’s God. That’s the Holy Spirit. I got to work early for the first time in a while and sat with the Lord some extra time.
There’s never too much Jesus.
He told me to read Psalm 8.
God is so good. All the time.
Fast foreward towards the end of my workday, I began watching some youtube videos that pulled to me. First, new habits are going to come to fruition and favor is about to be over my life. My mother (I feel like it’s her) is going to come to know Jesus and be freed because she feels me growing closer to Him. Then lastly, watching Alexi’s testimony (Below), similar dream instances occured over the last year for me, maybe longer, but I’m just going to focus on this year for all intents and purposes.
Looking back, since bringing up wanting to learn more about deliverace at the church I attend, I’ve been dealing with exhaustion, confusion, forgetfulness, irritation, depression, interruption, loss of physical appetite, lack of physical thirst, and this feeling of knowing what I need to do and getting to where God is wanting me to be, but feeling discouraged. Feeling avoided. Lonely (all over again)
God is always good.
When bringing up wanting to learn more about deliverance and performing deliverance eventually, I was nervous for sure, but the reception was deceptive… Part of me knows there is some church-hurt on my end. I went into it feeling accepted and feeling I oculd be open and honest. Mixing up spirituality with religion. Being told we don’t need to do that anymore. Boiled down being told to be lukewarm, despite what I heard God tell me.
I was told repeatedly “christians can’t have demons”, “Our spirit is sealed off, saved people cannot become possessed. Our mind and body can be messed with, but not our spirit”, “the context and dispensation we’re in don’t tell us to do that.”, “There will be no talk of demonology in this church, this is a descipling church.”
This church needs help, but they don’t believe they need it. So I’ll just keep my distance and continue doing what the good Lord told me to do from afar. These human religious leaders are not the Lord, and unless he tells me otherwise I’m going to do what he told me to.
O Lord, our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth! who hast set thy glory above the heavens. 2 Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings hast thou ordained strength because of thine enemies, that thou mightest still the enemy and the avenger. 3 When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained; 4 What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him? 5 For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour. 6 Thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands; thou hast put all things under his feet: 7 All sheep and oxen, yea, and the beasts of the field; 8 The fowl of the air, and the fish of the sea, and whatsoever passeth through the paths of the seas. 9 O Lord our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth!
After hearing that from the church leaders, my gut was unsettled. That’s not right, something is being swept under the rug. I haven’t felt the Holy Spirit there in quite a while. Everyone is friendly, but this last sunday I was a little late getting there, everyone seemed cold; distant. Like they were done putting on their act; or maybe I’m just waking up that much more.
Ever since I brought up deliverance the kids and I have been sick… Then the rest of the list from above. Things in life are changing for the better. I can feel it!
This has only been experiences over the last 4 months. This weekend I’ll be going over instances over the last 10 years. Saturday, November 22nd 9pm on YouTube.
My first thought this morning wasn’t the usual “Mornin’ Jesus!”. Something was off. Something was wrong. It continued until mid-morning. It was cloudy and raining. Part of the way through work I got a pause in the day, so I asked him what was going on.
Over the last couple of days, I’ve been not wanting to take care of myself, my music taste had changed back to my “B.C.1” flavor. Over-all things were getting gloomy again. The night before all the kids screamed and whined at me as soon as I got home. That lasted until they all conked out. I was left stressed out and unable to unwind.
During the pause in the day, I asked, “what was going on?”, “Why was I feeling like this?”. It has been a considerable amount of time since these feelings have come around. Since I’ve listened to anything less than uplifting. It’s been a considerable amount of time since I’d not been able to reconnect with the Lord and shake it.
He revealed to me that forces were currently at play. Forces stemming from a certain somebody and their “friends” that they chose over me.
It’s rather irksome they’re including the children in this. As their behavior, was excessive, even for not feeling well. There was more energy behind it than illness allows.
I’ve been instructed to set aside prayer time tomorrow night. (I’ll be at work during the day). To Pray on these things and fill out investigation documents with the information received from Holy Spirit download.
Stay tuned for the livestream this Saturday night. I’ll be going over my findings about the Spirit of Formalism on YouTube at 9PM MST. And sharing my case files to WordPress and Patreon members.
The last livestream I had planned, I actually fell asleep as soon as I sat down to start, so I rescheduled it to later this month. From now on, we’re going to move with God when he says to move. and that is precisely what happened tonight. I got a confirmation tonight; it’s time to move.
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I’ve been suddenly exhausted and/or distracted whenever I begin a task or anything related to this blog, Jesus, or the spiritual gifts he’s bestowed upon me. It was starting to get really old when tonight, upon pulling into my driveway, I felt the urge to record. So, I started recording, and lo and behold, I got an answer. It stood out like a sore thumb in real time, too. I’m feeling actual relief, and “The Enemy Has Stoked My Fire”
As I’m typing this, the kids are getting into each other’s Kool-Aid, and I don’t even feel agitated. God is amazing. Following His plan and purpose for me is just astounding. Directly above this text is some of the material I’ll be covering in the livestream Saturday night at 9PM MST.
That’s all the update I’ve got for tonight. Talk soon!
Since mid-august when I started intentionally moving in Gods plans, I’ve had a growing clarity and focus while I’m working. It’s not been like before when I’d sit down to work on something and wind up with the mental acuity of a dead flea. These times are different. The ideas are clearer; the words flow out onto the screen. Video gets edited, and Bible gets read.
I’ve been posting some on Patreon and have gone live a few times now. I’ve got another livestream scheduled for Saturday, November 8th, @ 9 PM. Where I’ll present my current findings on the Spirit of Formalism. This investigation was spurred after a meeting with a religious leader near me. On a list of names of spirits, the word formalism stood out, and things previously said began lining up. Also, the reason we had the meetings got quickly dismissed, and I’ve got a suspicion as to why that was, that’s only been solidified by little quips during group settings and glances in my direction.
I’ve been trying to go live on Patreon while I can think in the morning. I get a few minutes to get my thoughts out, then I need to work, or, like the last couple of days, I had a kid with me. This sick season has been a trip.
There is still cleaning to do in the house. I’ve got part two done and uploaded. The dining room was a mess. Not as bad as the kitchen, though, in part one.
I also have a Patreon where I go live at random and jabber, and I’ll be posting extra audio clips and extended video cuts for people who join the journey. so, check that out. I hope you’ll decide to go on this journey with me and learn about unclean spirits and why I’m so exhausted all of the time.
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