In an attempt to get some crafts done for the store I stayed up after the kids went to bed last night and managed to get quite a bit finished, started and brainstormed. But it resulted in only getting about three hours of sleep. Somehow though I feel like I got a whole night’s rest. That’s Jesus. That’s God. That’s the Holy Spirit. I got to work early for the first time in a while and sat with the Lord some extra time.
There’s never too much Jesus.
He told me to read Psalm 8.
God is so good. All the time.
Fast foreward towards the end of my workday, I began watching some youtube videos that pulled to me. First, new habits are going to come to fruition and favor is about to be over my life. My mother (I feel like it’s her) is going to come to know Jesus and be freed because she feels me growing closer to Him. Then lastly, watching Alexi’s testimony (Below), similar dream instances occured over the last year for me, maybe longer, but I’m just going to focus on this year for all intents and purposes.
Looking back, since bringing up wanting to learn more about deliverace at the church I attend, I’ve been dealing with exhaustion, confusion, forgetfulness, irritation, depression, interruption, loss of physical appetite, lack of physical thirst, and this feeling of knowing what I need to do and getting to where God is wanting me to be, but feeling discouraged. Feeling avoided. Lonely (all over again)
God is always good.
When bringing up wanting to learn more about deliverance and performing deliverance eventually, I was nervous for sure, but the reception was deceptive… Part of me knows there is some church-hurt on my end. I went into it feeling accepted and feeling I oculd be open and honest. Mixing up spirituality with religion. Being told we don’t need to do that anymore. Boiled down being told to be lukewarm, despite what I heard God tell me.
I was told repeatedly “christians can’t have demons”, “Our spirit is sealed off, saved people cannot become possessed. Our mind and body can be messed with, but not our spirit”, “the context and dispensation we’re in don’t tell us to do that.”, “There will be no talk of demonology in this church, this is a descipling church.”
This church needs help, but they don’t believe they need it. So I’ll just keep my distance and continue doing what the good Lord told me to do from afar. These human religious leaders are not the Lord, and unless he tells me otherwise I’m going to do what he told me to.
O Lord, our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth! who hast set thy glory above the heavens. 2 Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings hast thou ordained strength because of thine enemies, that thou mightest still the enemy and the avenger. 3 When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained; 4 What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him? 5 For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour. 6 Thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands; thou hast put all things under his feet: 7 All sheep and oxen, yea, and the beasts of the field; 8 The fowl of the air, and the fish of the sea, and whatsoever passeth through the paths of the seas. 9 O Lord our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth!
After hearing that from the church leaders, my gut was unsettled. That’s not right, something is being swept under the rug. I haven’t felt the Holy Spirit there in quite a while. Everyone is friendly, but this last sunday I was a little late getting there, everyone seemed cold; distant. Like they were done putting on their act; or maybe I’m just waking up that much more.
Ever since I brought up deliverance the kids and I have been sick… Then the rest of the list from above. Things in life are changing for the better. I can feel it!
This has only been experiences over the last 4 months. This weekend I’ll be going over instances over the last 10 years. Saturday, November 22nd 9pm on YouTube.
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